I have a thing for birds. Not sure really where the liking to them came from, but like them, I do. The short/small/pudgy ones that hop in their cute way are my fave. When I sit in the Square of Thanksgiving to journal and reflect Dtown, I like to take pictures of them. Heck, I even have one tattooed on me :O) I was reading a Chick-Fil-A book about birds to Nickelbug the other night and it stated that you can find so many places to eat when you can fly, pertaining to the many different places that the different types of fowl find good eats. Nickelbug related to it by sharing, "Yeah, you can find food at Starbucks, and at the mall, and at the store, and at the desert!" hahahah I love how she makes me chuckle and smile proud!
Enjoying an opportunity to share that tid-bit of Nickelbug and I's time together :O)
So, on to what has been rolling around in my cerebrum...I've been pondering a lot about the course of events in my life. Choices. Plans. Events. Some controllable and others out of my hands.
Past.
Future.
Presently.
Accomplishments. Mistakes. Learning curves. New horizons. What-if's. Dreams. Freshness. Tomfoolery. Blushing moments. Emotional roller coasters. Travels. Surprises. Challenges. Funnies. Faces: past, ones I have yet to greet, and ones still here with me now...
All part of my journey.
My God is pretty big. Caring more for my hearts condition than what I can do, or not. Now realizing He gives me the OK to focus on my inward journey, there is no need for me to worry about what others may think. Nor should I worry of being incapable or lacking in any area of my life cause He fills in those gaps for me where I humanly can't. My past does not surprise Him. My present does not worry Him. And my future is certainly not a mystery to Him. I have come to a place where I can love myself, just as He made me. Quirks and all(and I have many). This inward journey has taught me that meditating is important. Meditation does not mean you have to always sit in repose, stating in unison with others, "Ohmmmmmmm" for hours on end. You can meditate while you walk, draw, drive, gather firewood, mime, whatever, so long as you aren't consumed with thoughts about your past or lost in some made-up, fairy tale future. Meditation is no different than prayer. For me it's about getting centered with God, listening, asking, learning, loving, and letting go. Letting what God created shine! How I choose to project my light onto others is entirely up to me and learning to love myself, as is, has become my starting point. Finding love for myself; what I do in love to work through life and what I do in love when it's time to let go, no matter what the situation may be. People are fallible; many have come into my life, and many have exited. I'm okay with that. God doesn't go anywhere and even when I tried to shut Him out, He was still right on the other side of the door, standing guard to protect me. He is showing me to love, starting with me. Who am I to be so bold? Do you love yourself enough to
be okay in every situation? So much so that no matter what you say you
can have no attachment to how it and you are received? Be non-attached to the outcome. All results are good. Know this and you will be fine.
Coming to where I have arrived thus far, I can honestly share that I am a very happy woman :O) Sure, I've made plenty of mistakes (and still continue to make them as I'm only human) but I am thankful for them all for I am the woman I am today for them AND they have brought me the most beautiful little girl, EVER. For her, I desire not to ever change anything that has been done if it meant she would not be here with me now. A sentiment I believe that can (and will) be shared no matter where I am on my journey!
So, can you hear the birds singing?
"There is only love. Everything else is our resistance to it." ~Terces Engelhart
